Happiness

Happiness is the joy of earning what you get

The meantime

In the meantime, life is amazing!

Test

Tests are always about poise.

Self Validation

The ego can justify anything.

Resent

Resent is the rewarding feeling extracted from picking scabs.

Routine

Routine is ritual

Blessed

Blessed is the man who knows his curse.

Change

Embracing change allows change to embrace you.

Exhaustion

Is concerning your self with unnecessary matters.

Delays

Delays force you to appreciate the mundane, and to anticipate a change.

Focus

Your focus informs, and forms, your reality

lucky

It's better to be lucky.

the moment

If you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with.

hope

Hope is what makes the unbearable bearable. Despair does the opposite

Anticipation

1. Makes things more valuable 2. Extends your experience of the thing.

history

All history is revisionist.

taking the piss

People only give you a hard time when they think you don't care enough.

security

Is being able to handle any situation that arises.

Love

Love is so primal and pure that i don't know how to handle it. I am drawn to it like the moth to a flame.

identity

I must learn to negotiate the egos desire to imprison the true self. The ego is part of the true self masquerading as the entirety.

resentment

If resent is like taking poison and wishing someone else would die, then revenge is committing suicide and watching it through someone else's eyes

returning to regrets

I only return to regrets because they represent a tangible emotional nexus in my life

frustrated by lack of meaning

This happens when your attitude changes towards the petty material stories people use to reinforce their identities. It's not because they are insulted, it's because they know you are right.

trapped by thoughts

When returning to memories of embarrassment I now catch myself and ask why? It's a waste of energy and is usually unproductive

Self-Love

Learning to love yourself is preparation to truly love someone else.

Love and Scars

Sometimes I worry my scars warn off future lovers. And sometimes I worry it will attract them.

being new

Experiencing everything as new leads people to think you are young

undigested thoughts

Return as dreams

losing my religion

Gaining spiritual freedom

Karma

All that exists is instant karma. Everything else is an illusion.

secrecy

I have no secrets, only levels of initiation.

controller

The need to control is based in a perceived lack of control.

Those that love the lack of control in their life learn to control themselves.

Those that fear the lack of control in their life learn to control others.

wanting the yes

Is the first step to being able to say it.

detritus

Falling into synch with new patterns sometimes makes you fall out of synch with old ones

Holy Now

I love you.

tension

sometimes tension is so tangible I can feel it in the air. this frequency disturbs my creativity, and my natural urge is to get inebriated in order to circumvent it's effects.

wishing for the past

Wishing for the past reminds you about what's important in the present.

appreciating now

how much we live in our own worlds, affected and yet unaffected by each other. I often think that we've all constructed elaborate unconscious labyrinths that we walk through everyday. I can feel myself getting closer to the exit every day even though I seem to be following the same paths over and over.

and I'm appreciating the beauty of the labyrinth.

tragedy

Is recognizing you're in a comedy that every one else takes seriously.

time passes, only not so much.

whenever I think about thinking, I've probably thought too far.

does focusing on an idea manifest it? or does it become an obsession?